'IT'

He's the only one that knows ALL about me.
Even my DARK secret.Deeply dark n hidden secret...
Im fucking shy..That i dont know how to do it.
Im 18.He's right.I should be ashame of myself.
I tried to learn,but i still DONT KNOW HOW to do it.
I just dont know how!Even my mum was VERY busy.
And i dont know wht the hell is wrong with me that made me so dont want to learn how to do it..
And im sorry to Allah.I promise u i will learn n i will do it after i learn n know how to do it
Im SORRY TO ALLAH!IM SORRY!!!
I WILL LEARN N DO IT AFTER I KNOW HOW TO DO IT!
I PROMISE YOU ALLAH!